Weighed in at 195.6 and let me tell you why.I went to my friend's wedding yesterday. That's her in the pic with me. It wasn't anything big, a small justice of the peace affair, less than 10 of us there. I had sliced up my cucumbers to take with me to snack on in the car. Anyway, the wedding was in a quaint little bistro like bakery and there was wedding cake. I wasn't expected food. After the ceremony, Teresa started passing out cake and I gave her the look like I didn't want any but she didn't get it and I didn't want to turn it down, so I took it and told my husband he could have it. To make a long story short. I ATE THE CAKE. Granted it was a small piece but it opened the door that weakened my craving resolve.
We got home and I just wanted what everyone was eating so badly. I went to take a 3rd dose because that type of craving was unusual for me. After the dose I was okay but then I stayed up late because of the new year and somewhere between 1 and 2am I ate my homemade mac and cheese which I love, and 3 chocolate chip cookies that I had worked so hard to resist earlier.
I know that I am so close to my goal of 188 for this round. I know that eating off protocol will bring me a gain. Yet I still made the decision to eat.I have self destructive behaviors that I need to deal with. Back to the drawing board!
Well I did it, took my last drops today. My goal was 180 and I weighed in at 181 this morning. I wonder what it would have been if I didn't have to take medication. I have been so tired the last couple of days, you need a vacation to get over the vacation. Yesterday was our anniversary and we went out to dinner I had fish and a small salad. Phase 3 has me wondering what am I going to to. I went grocery shopping today and ended up buying the same things....chicken, lettuces, water, apples. I think I am finished with fish for a while. I am planning on making crab cakes and my friends son told me how to bake them instead of frying. I plan to start my next round on Feb.15th. I can't wait for my husband to start, he is a truck driver so you know he does not eat healthy. I will continue to cheer you on. You are still doing fantastic. You also motivated me when my weight loss slowed down and through my stalls, and for that I THANK YOU.
ReplyDeleteIts ok Gena - pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and move forward. You're doing great! The long round is so difficult...it'll be ok!
ReplyDeleteDon't worry about it just keep on going and you will hit that goal!
ReplyDeleteAnd wow Gena, you are looking good, girl!
ReplyDeleteThanks Christy! Can you believe my daughter who's in Fl said I look to skinny when she saw this. It's funny how we get used to certain things and think it's "normal" I really appreciate you!
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